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Pigeon Pose, or Eka Pada Rajakapotasana in Sanskrit for my yogis, used to be my absolute favorite pose to get into. I could lay on the floor with my head turned to one side and completely let go of life’s troubles.
For the last two years or so I’ve struggled with my once favorite asana. I thought I was injured, so I saw doctors, chiropractors, naturopaths, massage therapists, I tried resting it and I tried pushing. I even tried reiki. Nothing helped. I surrendered to the idea that Pigeon and I were through. It was sad, but we would find new loves.
Over the past several months I’ve found myself a couple of new yoga teachers in Cleveland. These two were patient, supportive, and new how to massage my muscles in just the right way, for just the right amount of time to get me to the floor once again. In my Sunday classes, my mini vacation from life, I’d have a big emotional release of breath and tears on the way down. One day it hit me, I’m not injured. If I was injured I’d not be able to get there and stay there. I was full of stress and anxiety. My hips stayed tight because I was doing everything I could to hang on. With a loving touch and patience, and that calming, reassuring male voice behind me, I LET GO.
I thought that since I knew what the problem was I’d be able to get in the pose without the help of an assist. I was wrong.
A few weeks later I went to an intensive training with the very special, Seane Corn. Seane brings God into her practice and classroom, and I felt a wave of relief and heavenly support when she’d open class with a prayer and end it with one too. She’d take us through a 2-3 hour hot, slow flow vinyasa, always working us into a pigeon by the end . On the last day of that training, broken down, wide open, ready to receive and let go of everything and anything, I collapsed into Pigeon, sobbing. The reasons for my anxiety exploded from my hips and heart and into head. I realized that I had to change my life. I did not work this hard, thus far, to be back in the same place I started in. In that same moment Seane spoke to the me. She was teaching a class of about 100 people, but she spoke to ME, and later confirmed that message from spirit in a private conversation. I wish to God I could remember her exact words, but I received what I was meant to and something in me shifted that day.
It was less than one month later that I went to Nicaragua to teach yoga on a life coaching retreat.
When I came home, I told my family and friends that I had decided to stop fighting my desire to be free, to travel, and to meet, teach, and learn from more people around the world. It felt goooooooood.
I felt good. I felt ready, relieved, happy, excited, healthier, stronger and at peace, like never before. It felt like my whole being said, “Finally! what took you so long, Lisa?!”, as if this is what I was meant to do, here for, and deserved for all my hard work.
It was a month before I took my next yoga class with one of my favorite teachers back home. She put us into pigeon without warming us up first and i thought, “NO WAY. Not gonna happen.”
I not only was able to find pigeon, but i melted right into my mat without a pain, grimmace, or fear. I sat up immediately with a huge smile on my face! “That was it!”, I thought. I was so excited I wanted to tell the whole classroom! I heard the message right away. I had to drop the baggage, the stress and anxiety caused by the unnecessary pressures I had accumulated over the past few years. I had made a CHOICE, took back my life, and let go of the excess.
Since that day, I’ve only had pain in pigeon when I’m not breathing, or staying in the present. My fellow yogis understand the emotional affects of yoga asana (poses). For those of you who don’t practice yoga, trust us, try it, and see what you can let go of in order to find your peace and truth. It’s so worth it.