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Since my last post, there’s been quite a big shift in how I feel in regard to living here, in Coco and Ocotal, Costa Rica. I feel like I’m getting more comfortable with a dash of anxiety. Stay with me…
Sometimes you just have to jump in and get started. As obvious as that sounds, it’s not that easy when you’re the new “sheltered” Midwestern girl in a small Central American town, but I knew I’d never get anywhere if I kept doing things alone; besides, I love people, and although I enjoy my alone time greatly, when on my own for too long, I wilt like organic lettuce in the golfcart. So…
At the advice of a friend, I signed myself up to volunteer at http://themonkeyfarm.org/ twice a week, made it a plan to go into town one or two nights a week, become a regular at the yoga studio and coffee shops, and accepted generous invitations to go to new places with new people. Every invite is an opportunity to make more friends, hear interesting tales, and see more beauty in Costa Rica. As a result, I’m sure, I don’t feel so much like an outsider as I did a month ago, not even as much as I did a week ago.
Having a bit of a schedule has helped too. Mondays and Wednesdays I volunteer at the farm and teach yoga at The Club at Coco Bay. Tuesdays and Thursdays I wake up early to get my butt kicked in the gym at 6:30 in exchange for private yoga. Fridays I teach morning yoga at The Club.
My housemate says that Saturday “doesn’t matter day” and Sundays are “fun days” around here… I’m still trying to work on that whole “Pura Vida, let’s plan last minute” thing. Scheduling in advance is a hard habit to break, but as a firm believer in, “if it’s meant to be it will be”, I’m not stressing about it.
I’ve dreamt about a schedule like this for years! Even the early morning wake up time isn’t that bad. It’s hot here. HOT. Hotter than hot, actually. I’ve never experienced heat like this for so many days in a row. So waking up early gives us the most beautiful sunrises I’ve ever seen, cool pleasant air of somewhere around 75-80 degrees, and quiet. It’s so nice, actually, that I really do want to wake up at 5:30 to enjoy it more, but my body says, “Hellll no!”. Maybe soon, when I adjust more, or not!
So where’s the anxiety coming from in regards to settling in? When I really think about it, it seems to be around what to do next, which leads me right back to the reminder that I need to stay present. Ah, is this the lesson I am learning right now? Did I just realize this as I typed it? Is it really that simple? If my struggle is staying present, then I guess that that’s the “what’s next” for me.
I don’t think there is much more to say here. I just got my lesson handed to me so I am going to sit for a few minutes, and be present. I’ll let you know how this goes next week. There I go again.